Tough Choices

Deciding to be a Mom and homemaker; that was easy. If only it were that easy though. If only I could stay at home with my children, raising them, caring for them, and not have to worry about money, obligations with bills, becoming debt free, or WORK. Life as we all know is very unexpected. The past six years have been unexpected for our family in every way.

Some good came from it though... The best thing was Shayne deciding to go back to school and for his choice to get into the medical field - something that is always in demand. Shayne graduates in May 2011 with his degree in Health Care Administration with an emphasis in Biochemical Technologies from Steven's Henager College. I couldn't be more proud. The hope is by this time next year, December 2011, our financial troubles will be a thing of the past and our family will FINALLY have the stability it so needs.

In a perfect world, I could assume my life will be easier from that point forward, but I am very wary this idea. The unexpected always happens. The economy is a frightening thing right now. Job Loss is at an all time high, and more and more people are finding it difficult to find work. Not to mention the horrible thought(heaven forbid!) if something were to happen to Shayne, I would have to provide for my two children all on my own. Would I be happy managing a Payless Shoe Source or Taco Time for the rest of my life???

This thought and other thoughts like it SCARED ME; enough to get some good out of it. I decided to go back to school. I started last month at University of Phoenix Axia Online College. Lucky for me, I already had my Associates Degree, so two more years in school wouldn't be so bad; possibly even four years in school if I decide to go for the Masters Degree.

Deciding what I would be happy doing the rest of my life; HARD. Medical being always in demand, at first I thought I would be happiest as a nurse (like my sister), or something I can do at home such as Medical Billing and Coding. Well, I am not a big fan of blood, needles, and such so nursing would be a horrible fit for me. I read more about Medical Billing and found out that it is not as wonderful as it sounds either. After a lot of thought, I decided to open my own Preschool. It's something I have thought about for years. Then I took it a step further - an Elementary School Teacher (so I can get benefits also). After reading my Patriarchal Blessing and some prayer, I knew that this is where I am meant to be the rest of my life.

I am excited with my choice. Seeing Danelle in school and being back in that environment from time to time makes me all the more excited. I am taking notes about cute things her school and teacher are doing to make learning fun, and I hope that I will be an excellent teacher. I have to admit that even when I am shopping now and I notice a festive vest, I think; "when I am teacher I will wear those!" I love the idea of being home when the girls are and getting all the holidays (except teacher days) off with them. I look forward to our summers together.

So - I begin the next chapter in my life; SCHOOL. Hopefully in 2013, or as late as 2015 for a Masters Degree, I will be posting a picture of me in my gradation cap. Wish me luck - the fun is just beginning.