Friday, April 1, 2016

This Thing Called Life

It’s been a while since I sat down and really written a blog.  Many well-meaning blogs were written on my phone, never to be transferred onto Blogger.  It’s sad really.  I used to love blogging.  Two things happened after I had Liam three years ago.  First of all it seemed that someone was ALWAYS sick.   The second – I had zero time to myself.  It wasn’t as easy to pull up a chair to a computer and write anymore. I always had someone needing me or something had to be done.  Even in the time it took to write this paragraph, I’ve already been up three times to help Liam and my dog.  I can’t complain though.  Life has been good to me.


I think for the sake of time, I will post a copy of our Christmas letter of what happened last year.  I think this will help get you up to speed on what’s going on in our family, and can help me pick up on newer topics. 

In my personal life, this year has been a year of hope and positive changes.  Around Christmas I received a FitBit Charge HR with the goal to lose 40 pounds before summer.  I’m not sure if I will lose the full 40 by the end of May, but I have lost around 21 since Christmas and still going strong.  The closer I get to my goal weight, the more motivated I feel to finish what I began.  With the warm weather settling back in, I am hopeful to put my weight loss on the fast track by exercising more often; walks, bikes rides, and maybe take up running.  It feels good to make myself more of a priority and get healthy while I’m at it. 

Liam just turned three years old.  I will be honest that I feel myself approaching a curve in my life I hoped I would be more ready for; the end of having babies.  Honestly, I thought I would be more ok with it than I have been. Everyone seems to think this should be an exciting time of my life, when I’m missing the baby days already.  I absolutely LOVE being a Mom.  It pains me to think they are growing up and in a blink of an eye, I won’t have any toddlers or preschoolers running around anymore.  In just a month, I could be done with diapers in my house forever.   I am trying to focus on all the positive things though about being done and hopefully I’ll make peace with the ache eventually.

For one thing, having older children can be very enjoyable.  We are going to the movies more often, planning trips, and starting to eat out.  I almost always get a full eight hours of sleep at night. I have two kids in school, and in a few short months all three will be in school at some point during the day.  I long for hours of freedom and silence – time to get whatever I want to done.   I haven’t had this in longer than I can remember.  We are planning bigger trips, and even not having kids napping during the day offers more flexibility to our schedule. We’ve been taking overnights away from the kids, and I even spent five wonderful days in Texas without my kids with me.  I’m sure once I taste the wonderfulness that “being done” means, I will feel much better about this transition in life.

That being said, I’m not getting rid of any of my big baby things YET.  Nothing is permanent YET. We aren’t past point of no return.  Only time will tell. Shayne might be more secure in his decision, but I can’t promise anything.

The other thing on my mind lately is finding that one special place to call HOME.  We’ve been in our neighborhood so long that almost everyone on our street is new.  Usually, we’re the ones to move before we get this far.  Several new families have moved in my area.  It feels like a whole new Somerset Village.  I’ve never lived anywhere long enough to be considered one of the older families in the ward.  We’ve been here five years and counting.  It’s been cramped.  It’s cluttered. We never have enough closet space.  We’ve sure had some great memories here though.  I’ve been talking to relators and financial departments about getting a loan and finding a home of our own though. We’re jumping through hoops and getting into a home hasn’t been as easy as signing the paperwork. We’d love to finally be able to give our kids the gift of a home of their own.  Part of the reason we’ve stayed here so long is to offer them some stability.  We all look forward to the change though and are looking forward to the day we can take our picture in front of a SOLD sign in our yard. Fingers crossed.


So that’s about it right now.  I hope to find more time to fill in my blog in the future, and maybe pull out a few old blogs of last year or even older to help full in the gaps a bit. Overall, I am in a great place in my life.  I have learned what it means to do without and am thankful for everything I am blessed with, taking nothing for granted. As they say, “enjoy the little things in life for one day you will look back and realize they were the big things.” -  Kurt Vonnegut

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